Funk

I was trying to come up with a word that describes some of what I've been feeling lately, and funk popped into my head. Eh. It works. Thankfully, there have been a few fun & funky moments to lighten the funk. (sorry, bad joke--just gettin' the dumb out)

This week has honestly been a lot better. We haven't had any snow yet (*yay*), but more importantly I've just felt lighter inside. You know how sometimes it just has to get worse in order to get better? Well worse was last week, and better is this week. The end of the semester seems so much more of a reality. It should--it's only two weeks away. I still have a lot of homework and projects, but I now feel I have the power in me to complete them. It was hiding for quite a while there. Sometimes it's just so hard to buckle down and do what you know you have to, when there are so many other things that you want to do that are also important and that would improve your life. Unfortunately, the things that I felt I had to do have timelines, so they have kept pushing the other things back. I hope I'm not being too confusing here.

It's been a long time since I've really posted. I've done a couple fill-ins, but nothing that's really me. I've kind of felt that it would take too much time to set up the background for what's going on in my life. When school gets out has become a too-frequent part of my thinking and conversation.

Although I've let some things I want to do (to live, really) be on hold, I have forged ahead into some new areas. Last semester I was introduced the world of craft blogging. I found so many good ideas! But I put off "crafting" at first because "I should be concentrating on school, etc. right now". Finally I just decided to heck with it and I started crocheting again. I don't think I had crocheted anything since before my mission. It felt so good to be making something tangible again. It started out with a few gifts, and then I started getting requests from my friends. I've sold a few things now, and it's turning out to be a multi-faceted blessing. (Random note: that word reminds me of my mom b/c she always told me that girls are multi-faceted like diamonds.)

I've been taking pictures of the things I've made, intending to create a craft blog where I can record what I've done and feel a sense of accomplishment. :) I decided I wanted to do that in January. Here it is April, and I'm not really any closer to it--except that school's almost out. (You see? There it is again.)

Well, now that it's out in the open I guess I've put some more pressure on myself. It's all about accountability when it comes to goals, isn't that right? Maybe I'll even go so far as to give myself a deadline. Let's say I'll have it by the end of May. That way, any of y'all who care to can start to give me flack if I don't get on the ball.

Now you know one of the things that has been making school feel so interminable. OK, I'll stop my rambling now. ; )